As the days have ticked by on my calendar, I started noticing an interesting thing. I am willing to try new things. If any of those involve anything that I was planning to do with my dad, the plan has gone to shreds. This has to stop. After three years of surgeries, cancer, Alzheimer’s diagnosis and weight gain (for several members of the family) I am exhausted, unemployed and unhappy. It is time for putting my foot down, or both, into a new way of life.
When my father passed away on January 17th, the world kind of stopped. I kept living day to day in a numb state. Our goal was to walk to the grocery store and back. That is a nice three mile walk. My daughter got a punching bag and he was going to teach her how to box. There is a couple of packages of cookies he purchased in his attempt to put weight back on that are still open in the coverts. I just don’t have the heart to throw them out. I packed all of his shoes in a bag to give to charity and never got around to doing that either.
So today, after having a long conversation with my partner in crime, I decided it was time to start. I am severely out of shape and rounding 240 pounds. I am pretty sure that I should never eat meat again unless I prep my stomach better. I need to stop relying on going to the store every day and start cooking at home. When I say I put my feet down, I mean I put my exercise pants on, tennis shoes, and went for a walk. Thinking that I was going to walk about half a mile, we took 35 minutes and when we measured, it turned out we had walked 1.3 miles. Needless to say, I am happy I might not be in as bad a shape as I thought I was.
If you are going through a similar situation, I give you this. Do you really think your loved one wants you to stop living because they are not? No, I don’t think so either. So whatever it is you are not doing because they are gone, put your foot down, or both and start walking. One step at a time. Before you know it, you will get to your destination and they will be thrilled, wherever they are.
So what do you think you want to do for yourself and your health today? Leave us a comment below.