I don’t want to use my page to talk about bad news. Just thinking of the title of this post was painful. I want to bring happiness and hope to the millions of people who are like me, middle aged, without a job and/or looking for meaning in their lives.
Yesterday was the straw that broke the camel’s back. It feels like every day a tragedy strikes. In the last six weeks we’ve had three hurricanes in the US and one in India, an earthquake in Mexico and now a mass shooting in Las Vegas. It feels like every time we start to recuperate from one thing, another thing happens. What are we supposed to do?
I live with anxiety and depression and all I wanted was to go back to sleep and wake up in a couple of weeks. I don’t take medication and times like this can make it a lot harder to move on. It is definitely not the time to try something new. I’m not even hungry and if you know me, you know that is strange.
Because I am not on medication, I usually can tell when things are getting overwhelming. This is different. When the things that trigger you are mostly natural disasters, you have very little warning. The great thing is that self study here is very important. I had said during the weekend that it was time to move forward, even though I still don’t know where half of my friends and family are (in Puerto Rico). When Vegas happened and I realized I had friends there, I went back to square one and then, this morning, I remembered we are in October.
October is my favorite month, it is a prelude to my birth month. Halloween is one of my favorite days of the year because it starts the 21 day countdown to my birthday. I had planned certain things for my business and my life in this month and I decided after taking a deep breath, that I was going to start Tuesday with a clean slate.
That is my message to you. It is OK to mourn and feel overwhelmed. At some point, and only you know when it is right, you have to take a deep breath, start again and keep it moving. There is going to be a tragedy every day for someone. Just don’t stay there and make it worse for yourself.
I hope this message brings you some relief.
Let me know how do you deal with situations like this in the comments section below.